He was once my umbrella in the rain

Now he's just another actor

in a bad drama 

replaying again and again

Same old pattern like a déjà vu

but each time with a new face

a new set, a new crew

but the same broken stage.

He's like a heavy wet towel

I try to wring some care

attention, some words, a smile

but he just stubbornly lies there

"my way or no way"

with him it's a daily trial

a daily case to fight

with no prize to win.

Why can't it be fun

on a tandem in the sun

hand in hand, side by side?

Why am I dragged behind?

Why must I always fall and slip?

We're not walking together

his will must reign supreme

he'll fight for the sake of nothing

it's unfair, it makes no sense

sometimes I just want to scream

It's a scale with only one side

I'm on the empty one

put on mute

with no right to fight

And like a bad old film

it plays on repeat

with every new man

I date and meet.

Pushed into the back seat

with no say

on the direction

or the script of his play

They say love's a journey

but I never got the wheel

just silence in the back seat

pain I wasn't allowed to feel

He chose the music

the road, the speed

watched the towns blur by

while muting my needs.

No matter how loud I shouted

no matter how much I cried

he just turned up the radio

"I'm listening," he lied. 

I knocked but he was a rock

I called but he was deaf

I screamed

but just lost my breath

Where are we going?

You say you're with me

but you're alone

driving your way

and right now

that way is leading you

away

far far away

where I'll never be

far far away from us

and from me.

There's a beautiful dream

it is one of us

but now it's turned to stone

covered in dust

I gently pad its coffin

gently lay it to rest

tuck it in warm

and wish it the best

I can't bring myself

to bury it underground

where it will never be seen

never be found

So I leave the grave open

and quietly walk away

as the sky turns red

the sun sets on a lifeless day

our dream lies frozen

staring up at our star

and it follows me

no matter how far

in our dream we're warm

happy and calm 

hugging tightly always

till the end of days

I do not want to return

to disturb it or find

it was shattered or taken

with nothing left behind

I drive away,

peacefully

knowing at least in my dream

you're always there with me.

at least in my dream

you're always there with me

at least in my dream

you'll always be

there's a beautiful dream

it's one of you and me

and in this dream

we'll forever be

it will live on forever

in a place we'll never go

frozen perfectly whole

through sun rain and snow.

never to live

never to be real,

but forever and after

it remains my dream still.

Es tan difícil
enfrentar tu sonrisa,
soltar tu mano
que me sostuvo por un tiempo.

Dejarla ir,
decir adiós,
dejar que nuestra estrella
caiga lentamente y muera.

Detrás de tu sonrisa
no hay brillo,
al menos no para mí—
ya no eres mío.

No hay razón
para que me vaya,
excepto que sé,
siento,
y creo.

Como neblina al amanecer,
tu amor se ha ido,
traté de atraparlo,
pero se desvaneció

y se posó en otra orilla.

Estamos solos,
ya no estamos rodeados de amor.

¿Qué palabras decir?
¿Cómo explicar
la tormenta silenciosa, la lluvia intensa?
Nuestro puente ya no está,
no podemos construirlo otra vez.

Estaba hecho de ramitas,
de dulces dientes de león.
Caminamos sobre él
con pasos suaves.

Nos conocimos y nos besamos,
reímos y sonreímos,
jugando en las orillas del otro
por un tiempo.

Pero una pequeña tormenta
lo arrasó todo.
Desperté sola
en un día desnudo y gris.

Crucé hacia la orilla,
pero tu puente no estaba allí.
Sonreíste y saludaste,
fingiste que aún te importaba.

Te miro desde el otro lado de la división,
y ni siquiera tu capa puede ocultar
el martillo y los clavos que vuelves a tomar
estás construyendo un puente, pero en otra orilla.

¿Qué decir?
¿Cómo explicar?
Nuestro puente ya no está,
no podemos construirlo otra vez.

¿Por qué quedarnos y fingir,
por qué esperar el último tronco
a perderse en un pantano?

¿Por qué encontrarnos cada día
en orillas separadas,
pretender que aún nos amamos
cuando ya no lo hacemos?

¿Qué decir?
¿Cómo explicar?
nuestro puente ya no está,
no podemos construirlo otra vez.

Veo su sonrisa,
miro en sus ojos,
y la palabra “adiós”
muere en mis labios.

our love remains a 

could have been

should have been

maybe 

almost

would have been

oh oh oh

but never even

a has been

oh oh oh oh

not even 

a has been 

not once.

All the plans 

I made alone

all the promises

you left undone

the memories we'll never make

the birthday cakes I'll never bake

the places we'll never see

the party there will never be

100 happy scenes I drew

you nodded, smiled

but didn't go through

with any promise you gave

you tossed 1000 promises

but they fell like confetti

in a dark lake

and melted into mush

our love remains a 

could have been

should have been

maybe 

almost

would have been

oh oh oh

our love remains a 

could have been

should have been

maybe 

almost

would have been

the rainbow I saw

vanished as a storm grew

rain pounded the windows

and like dust away you blew

The balloon I gifted you

now carries you away

i crane my neck to see

but the mist is cold and grey

our love remains a 

could have been

should have been

maybe 

almost

would have been

oh oh oh

our love remains a 

could have been

should have been

maybe 

almost

would have been

but never even

a has been

oh oh oh oh

not even 

a has been 

not once.

I close my diary

there's no point to recall

our love dries between whispers

no end, and no middle

nothing there at all.

I tried to speak to you

but you never cared

you were never there

even when you were besides me.

Too busy in your phone

to listen or see.

Too busy in your fantasy

to really care for me.

I spoke and you went to sleep

calling me too complex, too deep.

I wrote you a dozen songs

but you never heard

Because you. simply. never. cared!

So this is the song you never heard

from the girl for whom you never cared.

I loved you with all of my heart

loved you patiently with every part.

I was there in your darkest gloom

opened my arms, life, and room

gave you everything you could seek

devotion, day, night, month, and week,

let you go when you needed space

held you close when you wanted love.

You said you loved me

you kissed me and looked in my eyes

But you didn't see

not my soul, my heart, not me

no, no, no, 

you didn't see

any part of me.

You were deaf and dumb

blind and numb

blind to my tears

numb to my pain

I tried to reach out

but it was in vain.

So this is the song you never heard

from the girl for whom you never cared.

Let it blast through the neighborhood.

You feel embarrassed? Really? Oh, that's good.

Ramp up the volume.

Blast it, night and day.

Let the whole world hear

maybe finally it will reach his ear.

This is the song you never heard

from the girl for whom you never cared.

i'll blast it brutally loud and far

around the city as I drive your car.

Oooh sweet revenge.

Blast it! blast it! yo.

from the mountain top.

Ooooh. Don't stop. Don't stop. Don't stop.

from the radio. oh-o. oh-o. oh-o!

from his new girlfriend's phone. Ooooooh!

Everywhere he goes - he can't escape.

he cannot be alone.

This is the song you never heard

from the girl for whom you never cared.

this is the song you never heard

from the girl for whom you never cared.

Do I want you back? No way.

It's too far, too late. I'm on my way.

To find somebody who will really care.

He's gotta be out there somewhere.

You can pick up your car in the junkyard

and listen to my song

all the way home.

Don't try to get me back

I'm through.

We're done.

I'm gone.

Adios.

He thought he was ripe

but he was just green

felt he was the center

but he was never seen

he never matured

always an 'almost there'

never sweet enough to pick

or warm enough to care

an eternal almost

he remains green

lost in the foliage

left on 'read' but 'unseen'. 

I tried to thaw him

hold him close and tight

warm him in my arms

it wasn't worth the fight

he didn't want to hear

didn't want to see

didn't want to know

to accept love and grow

you can't change an orange

can't change its skin

can't change what it does

can't change anything

don't pick it

just leave it

let it hang

don't try to change it

it won't do any good

all you can change

is the one you choose

so pick them better

or you'll always lose.

don't pick them green

don't pick them bad

don't ignore signs

or you'll go mad.

don't wait for it to pass

drop bad ones fast

don't fight to change him

you'll just lose.

always lose.

lose.

oh oh oh oh.

You're magical, magnetic,

you zapped my brains tonight

I’m drawn helplessly

So helplessly

like a moth to the light.

You're a heartless heartbreaker

yeah, I’ve seen what you do

break hearts for fun, 

you love no one

and now I’m falling for you too.

I know your words are lies

this affair will make me grieve

but when you say "I love you"

my heart wants to believe.

You're every girl's dream

you know to play us well

and here I am, crazy for you

like all the rest who fell. 

I thought I could resist you

yet you broke every wall

with just a smile, 

and a laugh,

you have my heart and all.

You're a heartless heartbreaker

yeah, I’ve seen what you do

break hearts for fun, 

you love no one

and now I’m falling for you too.

My logic tries to warn me,

you'll use me like the rest

but the fire you've ignited

has me blindly possessed

I don't know how you did it

made me obsessed for you

can't pull away,

I’m stuck baby

like a fly in glue.

You're a heartless heartbreaker

yeah, I’ve seen what you do

break hearts for fun, 

you love no one

and now I’m falling for you too.

When the glitter fades

and the lights turn on

I see the lies you spun

and all my love is gone.

Oh-oh-oh. Oh-oh-oh.

You wore a mask of charm

a million dollar smile

faked your love so well

betrayed me all the while.

Oh oh oh. Oh oh oh.

Every word you said

was sweet deceit

You worked your magic well

Knocked me off my feet

Now the glitter fades

and the lights turn on

I see the lies you spun

and all my love is gone.

Oh-oh-oh. Oh-oh-oh.

You played me like a pro

Led me on so far

Now your lies blew up

I see who you really are

All the signs were there

I didn't want to see

wanted to believe

you were Mr. Right for me.

Now the glitter fades

and the lights turn on

I see the lies you spun

and all my love is gone.

Oh-oh-oh. Oh-oh-oh.

oh it shines like gold

and it looks so fine

but it's just cheap paint

and water-diluted wine.

I believed it all

Yeah you acted well

Now your lies blew up

And it's you who fell

On the floor. On the floor.

Now the glitter fades

and the lights turn on

I see the lies you spun

and all my love is gone.

Oh-oh-oh. Oh-oh-oh.

Don't beg me to forgive

I will not forget

And a second chance

You will never get

Oh no no. Oh no no.

Now the glitter fades

and the lights turn on

I see the lies you spun

and all my love is gone.

Oh-oh-oh. Oh-oh-oh.

I didn't gift you my heart

I lent it to you

to love and to care for

to hold close and true

but you stuck it in the attic

next to medals you won

sighed in satisfaction

and thought you were done

now i'm taking it back

the poor thing's almost dead

not once did you warm it

not once was it fed

it's covered in dust

it's cold and shaking

so thirsty and dry

its surface is breaking

I'll give it a bath

soapy and hot

clean up your mess

rub away every spot

I'll wrap it up nice and warm

hope it will survive

give it Vitamin C

hope it will revive

I lent you my heart

glowing, loving, and hot

shining like nail polish

clean, without a spot

but you didn't care

to keep it alive and well

while you bragged to your friends

into decay it fell

I lent you my heart

but you always forgot

to give it some love

to keep it safe and hot

now i'm taking it back

i'll care for it myself

love it and love it

nurse it back to health

I lent you my heart

but you always forgot

to give it some love

to keep it safe and hot

now i'm taking it back

i'll care for it myself

love it and love it

nurse it back to health

the next man who requests it

will have to prove himself really hard

i'm not giving it away easily

i'll be a cautious, loving ward

he gave me so many reasons

to be mad

to cry

to turn

to be sad

so many reasons I'm mad

I couldn't count it on my toes

and when he sees

when he knows

he turns his back

shrugs

and goes

I put on a fake smile

Don't ask me why

I always let him return 

after a while

the warmth in our room

in my chest, in my soul

is now all gone

not a trace left at all

I want it back

but he leaves with a storm

that robs all the joy

takes away anything warm

even the memories drift 

away across a dark sea

wrapped in mist

all escaping from me

the first time we kissed

is like a line in black ink

all the warmth and sunshine

like the titanic starts to sink.

today I said "I love you"

but it fell like a stone

echoing in my hollow chest

fooling no one.

I lie to hold our strings

that already tore apart

I lie to hide the pain

he laid in my heart

I lie, oh oh don't ask me why

I lie for a forgotten dream

that was written in gold ink

but never came to the screen

a fairytale that lives 

on and on

playing on repeat

but only in my mind...

never in the memories we left behind...

never in reality

only ever in my fantasy

never in the past

and I know

now I know 

I know at last...

.... it will also never be

in the present

in our future

never never can he be

it's just a dream I wrote

no no 

never ever in our reality.

No te regalé mi corazón

Te lo presté para que lo amaras 

y cuidaras

para que lo tuvieras cerca 

y con verdad

Pero lo metiste en el desván

junto a las medallas que ganaste

y pensaste

que ya habías terminado

Ahora lo voy a recuperar

la pobre cosa está casi muerta

ni una sola vez la calentaste

ni una sola vez fue alimentada

Está cubierta de polvo

está fría y temblando

tan sedienta y seca

su superficie se está agrietando

Le daré un baño

jabón y agua caliente

limpiaré tu desastre

y frotaré hasta quitar cada mancha

La envolveré bien, calientita

con la esperanza de que sobreviva

le daré vitamina C

con la esperanza de que reviva

Te presté mi corazón

brillante, amoroso y ardiente

reluciente

limpio, sin una sola mancha

Pero no te importó

mantenerlo vivo y sano

mientras te jactabas con tus amigos

cayó en la ruina

Te presté mi corazón

pero siempre se te olvidaba

darle un poco de amor

mantenerlo a salvo y caliente

Ahora lo voy a recuperar

yo misma lo cuidaré

lo amaré y lo amaré

lo sanaré con cariño

Te presté mi corazón

pero siempre se te olvidaba

darle un poco de amor

mantenerlo a salvo y caliente

Ahora lo voy a recuperar

yo misma lo cuidaré

lo amaré y lo amaré

lo sanaré con cariño

El próximo hombre que lo pida

tendrá que esforzarse de verdad

no lo voy a dar tan fácilmente

seré una guardiana amorosa y cautelosa

You are a sun ray
in human form
the angels kissed your soul
before you were born.

With you nothing matters
let it rain or storm
because you are my sun
and your love keeps me warm.

You smile at me
and the world seems less gray
you smile again
and all the clouds run away.

You're my sun ray
my sun ray, my sun ray,
ohhhhhh
You're my sun ray.
I love you
night and day.
You're my sun ray.

You're stable like a mountain
you're deeper than the sea
your love is like a fountain
pouring endlessly.

You're kind and true
you're honorable and strong
I want you by my side
all day and all night long.

No matter what happens
you always do what's right
you're just, and trustworthy,
you calmly solve any fight.

You're gentle as a breeze
sturdy as a tree
your love lights my skies
always shining down on me.

My soul took one glance
and knew it found its mate
it pulled me into your arms
unable to wait.

You're my sun ray
my sun ray, my sun ray,
ohhhhhh
You're my sun ray.
I love you
night and day.
You're my sun ray.

You're real like the earth
you're purer than the rain
when you touched my frozen heart
it returned to life again.

You never wear a mask
you never try to be
anything for anyone
except who you are naturally.

You don't have any layers
your soul shines clear and bright
like a sun, it pours out
love and warmth and light.

You're my sun ray
my sun ray, my sun ray,
ohhhhhh
You're my sun ray.
I love you
night and day.
You're my sun ray.

I love you, I love you, I love you my dear
Take me, love me, always stay near.
You're my air, water, and earth
everything I've missed
you brought me to life
the first time we kissed.

Wrap yourself around me
revive me and ground me.
You're love and life
you're my sun ray.
I love you with each breath
each moment
each night
and each day.

You're my sun ray
my sun ray, my sun ray,
ohhhhhh
You're my sun ray.
I love you
night and day.
You're my sun ray.

You're my sun ray
my sun ray, my sun ray,
ohhhhhh
You're my sun ray.
I love you
night and day.
You're my sun ray.

Eres un rayo de sol
en forma humana.
Los ángeles besaron tu alma
antes de que nacieras.

Contigo nada importa,
que llueva o haya tormenta,
porque tú eres mi sol
y tu amor me mantiene cálida.

Me sonríes
y el mundo parece menos gris.
Sonríes otra vez
y todas las nubes desaparecen.

Eres mi rayo de sol,
mi rayo de sol, mi rayo de sol,
ohhhhhh
eres mi rayo de sol,
te amo
de noche y de día,
eres mi rayo de sol.

Eres firme como una montaña,
más profundo que el mar,
tu amor es como una fuente
que fluye sin cesar.

Eres amable y sincero,
honorable y fuerte.
Quiero tenerte a mi lado
todo el día y toda la noche.

Pase lo que pase,
siempre haces lo correcto.
Eres justo y confiable,
y resuelves todo conflicto con calma.

Eres suave como la brisa,
firme como un árbol.
Tu amor ilumina mis cielos,
siempre brillando sobre mí.

Mi alma te miró una vez
y supo que eras su pareja.
Me atrajo hacia tus brazos
sin poder esperar.

Eres mi rayo de sol,
mi rayo de sol, mi rayo de sol,
ohhhhhh
eres mi rayo de sol,
te amo
de noche y de día,
eres mi rayo de sol.

Eres real como la tierra,
más puro que la lluvia.
Cuando tocaste mi corazón congelado,
volvió a la vida.

Nunca llevas una máscara,
nunca intentas ser
nada para nadie
que no seas tú mismo, naturalmente.

No tienes capas.
Tu alma brilla clara y fuerte,
como un sol que derrama
amor, calor y luz.

Eres mi rayo de sol,
mi rayo de sol, mi rayo de sol,
ohhhhhh
eres mi rayo de sol,
te amo
de noche y de día,
eres mi rayo de sol.

Te amo, te amo, te amo, mi amor.
Abrázame, ámame, quédate siempre cerca.

Eres aire, agua y tierra,
todo lo que me faltaba.
Me diste vida
con nuestro primer beso.

Envuélveme,
revíveme, conéctame.
Eres amor y vida.
Eres mi rayo de sol.
Te amo con cada aliento,
cada momento,
cada noche
y cada día.

Eres mi rayo de sol,
mi rayo de sol, mi rayo de sol,
ooooh
eres mi rayo de sol,
te amo
de noche y de día,
eres mi rayo de sol.

Everything's a mess now
don't know how you did it
thought I had no heart
but you found where I hid it.

I used to be a mermaid
swimming in the deep sea
safe alone in darkness
where no one could reach me.

All the fisher boys
could only catch my laughter
if they tried to find me
they'd be lost forever after.

Days faded together
nothing worth recalling
now the sea is churning
I'm dizzyingly falling.

Never felt so helpless
whirlpools keep spinning
I swim against the current
but it keeps on winning.

One moment the waves are cold
the next moment the tide turns
pulling me through fire
till my skin and soul burns.

I used to be a mermaid
swimming alone in the dark
now you've started a storm
lit within me a spark.

Everything's a mess now
don't know how you did it
thought I had no heart
but you found where I hid it.

When you smile I am floating
a body made of sparkles
then you disappear
and my world instantly darkens

Nothing can console me
when you're gone
never needed anyone
now I need you

you've turned on a light
that never shone
now I feel lost
and cold on my own.

I never felt so empty
and at once so alive
pulled by a thousand strings
not sure I like it or will survive.

I used to be a mermaid
swimming alone in the dark
now you've started a storm
lit within me a spark.

Everything's a mess now
don't know how you did it
thought I had no heart
but you found where I hid it.

Even in the night
there's no cave I can sleep in
I shut my eyes
and your ghost creeps in

wraps me in its arms
and wakes me up with kisses
leaving me on fire
in the cold cave,
full of secret wishes.

I used to be a mermaid
swimming alone in the dark
now you've started a storm
lit within me a spark.

Everything's a mess now
don't know how you did it
thought I had no heart
but you found where I hid it.

Never liked to be out of control
or try things unknown and new.
Out of my safe zone
my world expands with you.

The closer that you come
the further I flee
trying to hide in the Arctic
where you cannot burn me.

I used to be a mermaid
swimming alone in the dark
now you've started a storm
lit within me a spark.

Everything's a mess now
don't know how you did it
thought I had no heart
but you found where I hid it.

I see your boat gliding upon the sea
but I won't go there, held back by fear
I'll sing it to the fish
a secret you'll never hear.

Now I know
now it's clear
you were only here for the honey
only here while it was sunny

ohhho ohhho
oh nooo

he came like a bee
stung like a wasp
stole all the pollen
broke all her trust

he left her hanging
wilted and gray
and holding his pollen
buzzed happily away

he got what he wanted
he took more and more and more
left her empty and hurting
faded, quiet, sadder than before

and now there's nothing more
for him to take
so he flew away
with charming smiles all fake.

to find another flower
to enjoy, to devour
to buzz and smile
stay for a while...

then leave-
with everything she gave
without a goodbye
without a wave.

Now I know
now it's clear
you were only here for the honey
only here while it was sunny

ohhho ohhho
oh nooo

Now I know
now it's clear
you were only here for the honey
only here while it was sunny

ohhho ohhho
oh noo

and now there's nothing more
for him to take
so he flew away
with charming smiles all fake.

It's so hard to face your smile
to release your hand
which held me for a while

To let it go
to say goodbye...
To let our star
slowly fall and die.

Behind your smile
there is no shine
at least not for me
you're no longer mine.

There is no reason
for me to leave
except I know
I feel
I believe...

Like a mist at dawn
your love has lifted
I tried to catch it
but it's drifted
and settled on another shore.

We stand alone.
surrounded by love no more.

What words to say?
How to explain?
The quiet storm, the heavy rain.
Our bridge is gone
We can't build it again.

It was made of twigs
dandelions so sweet
we walked on it
with gentle feet.

We met and kissed
we'd laugh and smile
playing on each other's shores
for a while.

But one small storm
washed it all away.
I woke up alone
to a day bare and gray.

I crossed to the shore
but your bridge wasn't there
you smiled and waved
pretended to still care.

I watch you from across the divide
and yet even your cloak can't hide
the hammer and nails
you hold once more,
you're building a bridge
— but on another shore...

What to say?
How to explain?
Our bridge is gone
We can't build it again.

Why stay and fake
why wait for the last log
to wash away into a bog

Why meet each day
on separate shores
pretend we still love
when we do no more?

What to say?
How to explain?
Our bridge is gone
we can't build it again

I see his smile
look into his eyes
and the word 'goodbye'
on my lips, dies.

Es tan difícil
enfrentar tu sonrisa,
soltar tu mano
que me sostuvo por un tiempo.

Dejarla ir,
decir adiós,
dejar que nuestra estrella
caiga lentamente y muera.

Detrás de tu sonrisa
no hay brillo,
al menos no para mí—
ya no eres mío.

No hay razón
para que me vaya,
excepto que sé,
siento,
y creo.

Como neblina al amanecer,
tu amor se ha ido,
traté de atraparlo,
pero se desvaneció

y se posó en otra orilla.

Estamos solos,
ya no estamos rodeados de amor.

¿Qué palabras decir?
¿Cómo explicar
la tormenta silenciosa, la lluvia intensa?
Nuestro puente ya no está,
no podemos construirlo otra vez.

Estaba hecho de ramitas,
de dulces dientes de león.
Caminamos sobre él
con pasos suaves.

Nos conocimos y nos besamos,
reímos y sonreímos,
jugando en las orillas del otro
por un tiempo.

Pero una pequeña tormenta
lo arrasó todo.
Desperté sola
en un día desnudo y gris.

Crucé hacia la orilla,
pero tu puente no estaba allí.
Sonreíste y saludaste,
fingiste que aún te importaba.

Te miro desde el otro lado de la división,
y ni siquiera tu capa puede ocultar
el martillo y los clavos que vuelves a tomar
estás construyendo un puente, pero en otra orilla.

¿Qué decir?
¿Cómo explicar?
Nuestro puente ya no está,
no podemos construirlo otra vez.

¿Por qué quedarnos y fingir,
por qué esperar el último tronco
a perderse en un pantano?

¿Por qué encontrarnos cada día
en orillas separadas,
pretender que aún nos amamos
cuando ya no lo hacemos?

¿Qué decir?
¿Cómo explicar?
nuestro puente ya no está,
no podemos construirlo otra vez.

Veo su sonrisa,
miro en sus ojos,
y la palabra “adiós”
muere en mis labios.

trying to hold together

the threads of something

that's already gone

already tore

trying to revive the spirit

of something passed

that never was

and never will be no more

why do I fight to win

when there's nothing to win?

why do I fight to keep the one

I should never have let in?

fallen stars

do not revive

you can pick up ashes

but can't bring them to life.

I kept trying to catch it

stop its fall

but you didn't care

didn't care at all

you dropped our love 

like a rock

tore through my net

burned my hands red

then you smiled like a sun

and hoped I'd forget

all the things you never regret

looking back

All I see is pain.

I never will dive 

after a fallen star again.

oh oh oh oh oh oh 

oh oh oh oh oh oh

ohhhhhhhhhhhh

never dive after

a star that wants to fall

never chase a ghost

through a black hole

never wish upon

a dead star

never try to save

its ashes in a jar.

never dive after

a star that wants to fall

never chase a ghost

through a black hole

never wish upon

a dead star

never try to save

its ashes in a jar.

oh oh oh oh oh 

oh oh oh oh oh

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh

never dive after

a star that wants to fall

never chase a ghost

through a black hole

never wish upon

a dead star

never try to save

its ashes in a jar.

oh oh oh oh oh

oh oh oh oh ohhhhhhhh

I didn't need to forget him

he quietly slipped out the back door

I didn't need to change my lock

his ghost just visited no more

I didn't bury any memories

they just silently sailed away

and when I opened my eyes

there was nothing left to dust away

not a footprint in my lawn

not a fingerprint on my glass

not a mark on my heart

or a photo in my mind

in the distance I hear thunder

his boat bobs far out at sea

I look around and wonder

was he even ever here with me?

I want to recall something lovely

but it's all now out at sea

he didn't leave me with one

just a dream of what we tried to be

and now I water my tomatoes

while the birds chirp and sing

I don't feel hate, don't feel anger

the breeze blows it all away

I'm left feeling nothing.

and no I do not cry

no I do not regret

no I do not miss him

because there’s nothing to forget

and no I do not cry

no I do not regret

no I do not miss him

because there’s nothing to forget

oh oh oh 

there's nothing to forget

oh oh oh

nothing nothing

to forget

In the end, 

in the end,

everything passes by

even the darkest moments

and a new sun lights the sky.

I’m so crazy about you
your love's a drug, stronger than cocaine
I can't live without you
although you've hurt me time and again.

Your hands are magical
oh boy, the way you play
with my heart
and each part
blows my mind away

You send me higher and higher
till I cannot breathe,
to a land,
of such joy,
I never want to leave.

I’m obsessed, I’m addicted
rehab can't save me,
never had anything like
this ecstasy you gave me.

I’m so crazy about you
your love's a drug, stronger than cocaine
I can't live without you
although you've hurt me time and again.
You cheat, and you lie,
don’t deny,
I know.
But your love is so good
I could never go.

You’re my poison
You’re my joy
You're my paradise.
Give me the lowest lows
and highest highs

I’m so crazy about you
your love's a drug, stronger than cocaine
I can't live without you
although you've hurt me time and again.

I thought you were real

alive, breathing,

with warm blood

in your veins

but when I held you

you turned into sand

cold and itchy

washed away with the tide

I tried to rebuild him

each dawn

but each night

the dark tide rose

and stole him slowly

bit by bit from his toes

till all of him is gone

I grasp desperately

but it all blows and goes

oh oh oh 

it all blows and goes

it all blows and goes

oh oh oh oh oh

He was all made of sand

never meant to be held

to be kept

or to stand

oh oh oh oh 

He was all made of sand

never meant to be held

to be kept

or to stand

every day I hope

every night I despair

don't ask me why

but I'm still hoping somewhere

but when the dark tide

rises under the icy moon

I cannot hold it back

I know he'll be gone soon

oh oh oh oh 

He was all made of sand

never meant to be held

to be kept

or to stand

oh oh oh oh

Never love a sand man

never love a ghost

never fight the sea

you've already lost.

I'm not gonna cry for you

I have better things to do

so you left me, so what?

I still shine bright and hot

I'm still me, 

and I'll always be

I'm still alive, 

and I'll always thrive...

on my own.

I love me, 

even if you're gone

and I'll still shine - 

on and on and on...

You dumped me in the rain

I got wet, but so what?

at home a warm towel I've got

I'll dry myself, take a hot shower

move on, eat cake, water my flower.

No, I'm not bitter, I'm better

your love left me colder and wetter

but I can warm myself, 

I don't need you

I can shine on, 

no matter what you do.

Because....

I am my own sun

I shine alone, need no one

I don't revolve around you

I loved you, that's true

But when you're gone

I don't crumble and cry

I don't fade or die

I'm a sun

and I always...

shine on and on and on!

I'm not gonna cry for you

I have better things to do

you're not the only guy

you left? oh well, bye bye.

I'm complete on my own

i won't die when I'm alone

I'm everything I need

my heart hurts, but it won't bleed.

I give myself a hug

a hot chocolate mug

go do my nails

and watch TikTok fails.

I'm not gonna cry for you

I have better things to do

you're not the only guy

you left? oh well, bye bye.

I'm a sun, I don't need you

I'll keep on shining

on and on and on and on

no matter what you do.

I will keep on shining

on and on and on and on

even after you're gone

I'll keep on shining

on and on and on!

I'm a sun

and I'll always be

I bring light and love

plenty are attracted to me

without you, I'm not broken, 

I'm just free.

free to start anew

with someone kind and true

someone I'll meet soon

a new star, a brighter moon.

When I walked in moonlight

Like a vampire I hid

from the sun and life

and on red floors I slid

when I drowned for fun

in a black bath

and had no one

oh oh no one

Then a shadow came

and kissed my sealed lips

whispered in echoes

touched my fingertips

He was warm and real

but only at night

He was never wrong

just never right

in the light

living in a haunted house

he filled the dark with peace

I fell asleep without tears

and slept quietly without fears

in his arms

in his arms

in his arms

the storms outside

subside

the ghosts inside

run and hide.

He arrives in shadows

opens my curtains at dawn

but the moment the sun shines

he fades, ripples, and is gone

he's my phantom

my guardian

my light at night

but always hidden from sight 

I want to see him, see clearly

but when I turn on the light

he vanishes instantly

like a shadow of the night.

Shadow boy

shadow boy

belongs to the night

only belongs to the night

fades in the sunlight.

As light as a breeze

never know when he'll be there

as slippery as ice

never sure if he'll still care.

When the clock strikes twelve

he sometimes appears

other times he's gone

for what seems like years.

Our love is made

of two souls wandering alone

when we found our way

our love crumbled

and was gone

broken alone

fixed together

like two birds

With a broken wing

we set out after a storm

you to the south, 

me to the north

each of us whole

but never again together

Our love was like snow

it never had a chance

to blossom and grow

into a warm romance

it was beautiful

but frozen 

in pure winter glory

like stars in a fictional story.

too fragile to hold

but beautiful to see

when you tried to grasp it

it melted instantly

when spring came

it melted into the ground

faded away until

not a trace could be found

it hovered like an old memory

of misty days gone by

and as the trees bloomed in joy

our love whispered goodbye

it was once everywhere we looked

a white ocean spreading endlessly

always all around

you and me

we thought it would last forever

that spring would never arrive

but snow, so vast, so beautiful

can’t last, can’t survive

now it vanished without a trace

and all I feel beneath my feet

is wet sludge

ugly mud

and fresh spring heat

the snowman we built

collapsed into the grass

two sticks

your hat

nothing else could last

our love was fragile

beautiful and once real

but now it's gone like snow

nothing left to see

hear

or feel

ohhh oh oh oh

I returned to the glade

where we first kissed

now the snowman gone

and he will never be missed

no grave for his memory

no photo to share

no one to think of him

cry, return, or care.

our love was fragile

beautiful and once real

now it's gone like snow in spring

leaving behind no trace of anything.

he fades from my mind

and heart

like snow in July

I don't know why

oh oh I don't know why

I try to hold on

but there's no way

 watch the last sparkly

snow fade away

into the silent past.

I wrote you breakup songs

but before they started to play

you kissed me, and missed me

and the songs faded away

maybe there's hope

maybe not

with every kiss

more reasons I forgot

but after you left

the song starts to play

to be or not to be

should I leave or stay?

We're walking a line

between dark and light

the sun has set

it's almost night

you're holding a lantern

but can't light the match

our hands drift apart

our fingers barely touch

will you light it on time

before the dark takes hold

or will we lose each other

wonder alone in the cold.

you fight hard to keep me

but do you really care

often you're just a ghost, 

not really there.

you go through the motions

like a robot without emotions

your lips move but I don't hear

anything real or clear

We're walking a line

between dark and light

the sun has set

it's almost night

we ride a seesaw

I always land with a thud

sometimes I fly off

and fall in the mud

but while I'm high

I want to forget

all the reasons

I always regret

We're walking a line

between dark and light

the sun has set

it's almost night

far away, the city lights shine

you swear and try harder

but can't light 

your match or mine.

We're walking a line

between dark and light

the sun has set

and now it's night.

the dark engulfs us.

we're far from the light

will we survive in the wild

another cold night?

I hesitate, 

holding your hand

the rain begins to fall 

but only where you stand.

oh 

the rain begins to fall 

but only where you stand.

the rain begins to fall 

but only where you stand.

I hug you, hold you tight

but there's no warmth, no light

just the cold rain

and the endless night.

We crossed the line

into night

the sun has set

there's no more hope

no light.

You drop the matches,

You release my hand

Tears and rain stream 

where you stand.

I kiss you goodbye

and return to the city

our love remains a greeting card

sparkly, fake, but oh so pretty

Behind me, I hear you cry

I don't look back

and let the last match die.

She asked me why I left him

why why why?

and I had no answer because....

He never hit or hurt me

he never did anything 'bad'

he just did nothing

which hurt most of all.

He was only at my side

when all was fine